Grey Matters

I can write these things I am about to because my blog is now protected. It's beena long time since I came here and a lot has happened. But in all that has happened I discovered, reading through my blog, that I havent changed. Now it's a good thing to be the same person you were and not be unpredictable, but when it seems you havent changed because you havent learned anything, then there is an issue. I do not know what God wants me to learn from life and what paths I need to go on. All the things that afflicted and affected me made me withdrawn for a while, but other than the fact that I do not feel the desire to please anyone anymore, my issues are still the same and worse still, my choices as well. I have been very unhappy for most of last week, primarily because of a sexual encounter I had with this guy. I have known him for about as long as I had this blog but now he is married. And we hooked up recently and I feel like I am in love with him. But we had issues when we...

These are the actual lyrics to a Beatles song. I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together. See how they run like pigs from a gun, see how they fly. I'm crying. Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come. Corporation t-shirts, stupid bloody Tuesday. Man, you've been a naughty boy, you let your face grow long. I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus, Goo goo ga joob. Mister City P'liceman sitting Pretty little policemen in a row. See how they fly like Lucy in the Sky, see how they run. I'm crying. I'm cry, I'm crying, I'm cry. Yellow matter custard, dripping from a dead dog's eye. Crabalocker fishwife, pornographic priestess, Boy, you been a naughty girl and you let your knickers down. I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus, Goo goo ga joob. Sitting in an English garden waiting for the sun. If the sun don't come, you get a tan from Standing in the E...

1. My hairdressers never have to repeat my hairstyles on anyone else. No one ever has the courage to carry it off. 2. Jeans are a major part of my formal attire 3. I'm attracted to guitars 4. I'm totally in touch with my inner child, but I am still definitely an adult. (Only rock stars can walk this thin line.) 5. Kids think I am cool. 6. I love to travel