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I can write these things I am about to because my blog is now protected.

It's beena long time since I came here and a lot has happened. But in all that has happened I discovered, reading through my blog, that I havent changed.

Now it's a good thing to be the same person you were and not be unpredictable, but when it seems you havent changed because you havent learned anything, then there is an issue. I do not know what God wants me to learn from life and what paths I need to go on. All the things that afflicted and affected me made me withdrawn for a while, but other than the fact that I do not feel the desire to please anyone anymore, my issues are still the same and worse still, my choices as well.

I have been very unhappy for most of last week, primarily because of a sexual encounter I had with this guy. I have known him for about as long as I had this blog but now he is married. And we hooked up recently and I feel like I am in love with him. But we had issues when we trie…

Music To Our Ears

These are the actual lyrics to a Beatles song.

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together.
See how they run like pigs from a gun, see how they fly.
I'm crying.

Sitting on a cornflake, waiting for the van to come.
Corporation t-shirts, stupid bloody Tuesday.
Man, you've been a naughty boy, you let your face grow long.
I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus,
Goo goo ga joob.

Mister City P'liceman sitting
Pretty little policemen in a row.
See how they fly like Lucy in the Sky, see how they run.
I'm crying.
I'm cry, I'm crying, I'm cry.

Yellow matter custard, dripping from a dead dog's eye.
Crabalocker fishwife, pornographic priestess,
Boy, you been a naughty girl and you let your knickers down.
I am the eggman (woo), they are the eggmen (woo), I am the walrus,
Goo goo ga joob.

Sitting in an English garden waiting for the sun.
If the sun don't come, you get a tan from
Standing in the English rain.
I am the egg…

All The Reasons Why I Think I Should Have Been A Rockstar

1. My hairdressers never have to repeat my hairstyles on anyone else. No one ever has the courage to carry it off.

2. Jeans are a major part of my formal attire

3. I'm attracted to guitars

4. I'm totally in touch with my inner child, but I am still definitely an adult. (Only rock stars can walk this thin line.)

5. Kids think I am cool.

6. I love to travel

The End

This will be the last time this blog will be open to the public. It
was an uneasy décision but I believe the best thing is to make this
blog private.
I struggled with the increasingly nagging suspicion that I had evolved
beyond the woman who began this; and now I am forced to see it's true.
My initial idea was to shut it down completely but I realise I still
need it to see where I have comé from.
My new self, I am pouring somewhere else, that location is not
hidden, but so that I am not seen in the light of this one, I will not
reveal it.
Thank you to all who stopped by and read what some random girl had to say.
Chili
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Nigerians!

My daughter turns 2 in a few days and I thought I should do something
nice for her to remember, especially as she has been seriously ill
with an infection and needs à bit of cheering up.
So I went to the babystore I patronise regularly to see if there was
anything she would like. (How I would pay for it was à different story
altogether, but I wasn't thinking about that just yet.) To cut a long
story short, the lady owner told me she just got some toys and
brought à large carton over to me. I picked out à toy kitchen set,
complète with plastic pots, spoons, whisk, griddles and à stove! I
knew my daughter would love that, and it would save us the headache of
her banging our pots and pans. I also picked out an alphabet building
block set that fit together like legos. I then asked her the cost and
to my surprise they came to just over 2000 naira! I was overjoyed
because I felt even if I didnt have any money that amount would not be
hard to raise. I begged her to reserve the things for me and went …
From this day forward, I promise to do my utmost to nuture, honour and
respect my body and myself. I will no longer deride my looks but
instead encourage myself to be the way I want to be. I will engage in
physical and nutritional discipline that will be the precpitator of
that change. I will desist from eating things which are harmful to my
health or which add no value to my nutritional goals.
Most of all I will draw strength from my heavenly Father through whom
I can do all things.
So help me God
'chili!'
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