Red

december is the last month of the year
It would make sense to end it all here

Just a deliberate slit
Downwards not sideways
As the movies
Show it

It's funny but she knows she would not have to try too hard
If she were to slit her wrist
Not as hard as they tried when they needed a vein
To push medication down
That was the irony of her life
The healthy things were difficult
The harmful things came easy

We are at the same point again
Where we have been for ages
It makes sense to stop the train
To get off the bus

Maybe I was conceived as a joke
And no one will tell me
A joke should not last this long
It becomes a mistake

Just one deliberate vertical line
And we are free
You are free
Of me

I
Cannot
Go
On













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Comments

Dami said…
Oh yes, you can go on. You can live and dream again regardless of the pain and emptiness you feel. There's a Father and Friend who loves you beyond words could ever say and His utmost joy is to see you put your hands in His outstreched hand as he leads the way and directs the path of your life! Hold on sister. God loves you in a very special way, He cares about you and every detail of your life and He will be there right by your side to see you through. May you feel His warmth, His presence, His embrace, His love this season and for always!
Phil 4:6-7, Psalm 55:22, Isaiah41:10, Joel2:2.matt 11:28
December 18, 2015 at 5:33 PM
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